Self-Doubt. It’s a doozy.
Dare I say it may be the biggest fallacy in the way of us fulfilling our Divine Potential and allowing all of our dreams to come true.
Somewhere early-on along our journey here in this body, something happened to us. When that something happened, we made a decision that we were bad, wrong, not good enough and unworthy.
This is where we first began to doubt ourselves.
As time went on, things would happen that would remind and reinforce this idea us that we aren’t worthy...and the doubt would double up.
We may have had big dreams for ourselves and the world, but we built evidence and talked ourselves into an absurd and false storyline that we don’t matter, or that we can’t matter that much, or that our contribution to the world can’t really be that big.
Aren’t you ready to step into a new storyline that reflects a more confident, worthy and capable YOU?
Something happened to me recently that reminded me of the importance of eliminating my own self-doubt.
My friend and I were drinking Chai in her kitchen here in the jungles of Hawa’i on a beautiful Saturday afternoon before we were to embark on a fun hiking adventure to a secluded beach nearby.
All of sudden, we hear nearby voices of some men yelling. We rush out of the kitchen to find three young hunters with rifles calling for their dog that went stray on my friends’ land.
My friend starts to chastize the hunters, asks them what they are doing trespassing, and explains to them that she has cats that live here.
Then everything starts to move real slow.
I turn my head one way and watch as the black cat named Hina -- named after the Hawaiian Goddess of the Dark of the Moon -- jumps down from a tree to inspect the unwelcomed hunters that just arrived.
I turn my head the other way and watch as the hunting dog caught his first glimpse of Hina. He dashes for her, and before my friend and I could intervene the dog is attacking Hina.
It all happened so quick. Before we knew it, the hunters and the dog are gone, and a very injured Hina leaps underneath the nearby outdoor lua (toliet) to find respite.
The shock of what just happened hits my friend and I. She lays on the Earth next to the lua to comfort Hina as the cat coughs up blood and bellies out cries.
At first I don’t know what to do with myself or how to help.
After a few minutes of a “freeze” response, I realize the best thing I can do to help is to leave my friend alone to console Hina, and for me to go conduct a remote energy-healing on Hina from another part of the land.
So I find a grassy patch, grab my Tarot cards and get to work...
I primarily facilitate energy-clearings by allowing Spirit to work through me, and through the assistance of the Archangels, the Ascended Masters, and the personal angels and guides of both myself and the Being that I’m working on.
Never before have I seen and felt all the Light Beings’ presence so strongly.
I watch in my third eye as Archangel Raphael wraps Hina in a pink and green light.
I feel the monkey God Hanuman come to help and the Elephant God Ganesha as well.
I feel angels and guides healing Hina’s underbelly and her internal organs.
As I ask Spirit questions and pull Tarot cards for guidance, I am amazed at how positive the cards that came up are.
All signs are pointing to a miraculous healing and recovery. The dog seemed to have injured Hina’s two hind legs, but I am receiving messages that even those would work fine again.
When my friend takes a break from consoling Hina, she finds me and tells me that it isn’t looking good. Hina is starting to have those glazed over “Death” eyes.
I meekly attempt to assure my friend that my visions and sense is saying otherwise...but am I doubting myself. I am doubting the healing I was facilitating and the guidance I am receiving...
Hina doesn’t move from out underneath the lua that night or over the next couple of days. She isn’t eating or drinking and my friend is preparing for the worst.
My friend visits Hina with food and water every day, but it’s still unclear what kind of recovery she will have. Even if she survives the internal bleeding, it seems unlikely that Hina will ever be able to use her back legs again.
Ten days go by and Hina stays hidden to rest.
One night while I am home on the other side of the island, Hina comes into my awareness so strongly and I start having flashbacks of the night she was attacked. I start to feel worry that something has shifted.
I reach out to my friend to let her know what I am feeling and she tells me that a day and a half before, Hina had disappeared.
Four days go by without any sign of Hina.
We are coming to terms with the fact that she has gone off somewhere to die.
It’s confusing for me to hear this.
Again I feel myself fill with sadness and self-doubt.
Maybe I was only imagining the healing?
Maybe all the Angels and Beings and messages aren’t real after all?
Maybe they are just a product of wishful thinking, something I am making up?
Is it all just a fantasy, a delusion and illusion?
Two days later, I receive a text from my friend with a picture of Hina laying on the table in my friends’ kitchen that says, “Guess who’s back, and walking and jumping without a scrach?!”
Not only has Hina survived, her body is back to normal.
The whole experience has been magical.
Through the trauma and experience of Hina’s attack, I was reminded of who I really am and what I am really capable of.
I am a powerful energetic healer and I can make miracles happen. I facilitate shifts in reality and create space for transformation.
And I will no longer allow anyone - including myself - to ever to imply otherwise.
It’s time for all of us to remember who we really are and to confidently step fully into our Divine gifts and contributions for the healing and transformation of this planet.
It’s time for us all to let go of the self-doubt that’s in the way of us unlocking who we really are.
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Self-Doubt. It’s a doozy.